cheap thrills are like still like cheap friends
go down fast and come up sour
"he just made my list of things to do today"
and everything else that comes to mind when i think of you


save a smile for me in hell

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"sometimes i hope that i'll wake up as invisible as you make me feel"

for what it's worth i miss you.

you bring the bullets and i'll bring my love. ask me if i want it in the heart or the knee-caps? there are a thousand boys who wish they were sitting where i am. and i know you hate my band-

no love goes unpunished.

right now the details are killing me. i'm strung out on memories. i'm gonna unhook the stars and hang you there so you can never give up on me. and keep your smashed pieces in a box under my bed for when i get lonely. i know i am so criminal and nothing will ever be so simple.

i feel like a car crash in slow motion.
don't give up on this boy just yet.

i guess i have alot to say. i will try to break it up and make it as cohesive and understandable as possible.

this halloween was pretty bad. it was low key and boring. we went on a roomates outing to a haunted house at statesville prison- smashed some stuff and ended the night with texas chainsaw massacre. i got tattooed again. good stuff- you'll have to wait and see if you care because it will sound like the dumbest thing on earth if i try to describe it. the other night was kind of shitty. being that i feel like even when i am trying to do the right thing it gets fucked up. i won't go into details but i'm sick of holding grudges with people and if there is bad blood between me and you and it is at all my fault then hopefully we can move past it. it's just disappointing to have to avoid friends over stuff like this. we ended the evening at some UIC party with isaac shooting a fire extinguisher and ruining the whole party- then this glenn danzig character from the party chased us down and tried to fight. it ruled.

i know i don't tend to talk about stuff. i feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders right now. i guess most everyone reading this right now probably doesn't know whats going on with the band because we have been keeping it kind of secret. we are now at the point where we have been made some offers that are pretty big and would enable us to do the band fulltime. but it is really scary cause the choices we make in the next week or so will dictate our lives for the next couple of years. i can't sleep. i can't eat. it feels like i can't breath. other than this i am completely depressed. anyway, if i am avoiding you or seem short tempered this is probably why. i don't know what to do.

- and i am not sure that it's relevant at all
but liking you has made me a half-way decent person by default

heart pete